i am drinking coke atm and i have no intention of finishing it
you know i've never finished a coke can before?
i guess i'll have to give the rest to my bro, as always.
i just got a massive screaming session from my dad
he told me to search up some sort of building material for my new house right,
and i tried to, but the results that came from google werent the ones he needed
i told him that and he started s.c.r.e.a.m.i.n.g at me [understatement]
he kept saying stuff like:
"WHY CAN'T YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT?"
"I ASK YOU TO HELP ME DO SOMETHING BUT YOU ALWAYS SAY NO" [ i did not say no]
"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST HELP THE FAMILY A BIT? HUH HUH?"
"IF YOU HELPED ME FIND IT WE COULD OF SAVED A LOT OF MONEY"
"NOW I HAVE TO ASK THE BUILDER TO FIND IT INSTEAD."
"LOOK HOW USELESS YOU ARE"
i got really pissed off cos i didn't even object when he told me to do something even though i was in the middle of doing my work [which i had to time for tests purposes T_T]
& ITS NOT MY FAULT IF GOOGLE CANT FIND SOMETHING HE WANTS.
guess what?
i dont care anymore ! ha ha !
i am forming a new Joanne where she is immune to pain [internally] because she is already in pain normally anyway, so "pain" wont actually BE "pain", it'll just be normal
bulletproof. the best kind.
yeah i know people talk about me behind my back
i know my parents wish i was better
i know people hate me because of the way i am
i know i don't try hard enough at school
i know i'm selfish
but guess what?
I DONT CARE !
i used to. a lot . but now, i've learnt that to survive in this cruel world you have to not care
not, pretend not to. but actually, NOT CARE
emotionless.
but instead of wasting my life not caring about anyhting at all
i'll do some things to improve my life
eg, work harder at school.
i am determined this time, to actually get something at speech day ;
