nothing much to say.
stressed.
death week this week, and thursday (death day) is approaching fast.
haven't done much in preparation of that day.
i should start writing notes for history.
i should start sustainability
i should work on my geography radio script.
i should pay attention in english.
i should do a lot of things
monday.
a fairly happy day today, no depressing thoughts, until my lonely train ride.
i hate the train ride home.
especially on cold, grey days like today.
it makes you think that there is nothing positive about life, that everyday is just another day.
there's nothing to look forward to, nothing to keep you motivated to try.
why bother trying?
you know the result anyway.
failure.
i hate not feeling good enough.
good enough for what?
i don't know. just not good enough
what is enough?
i don't know either.
tomorrow's tuesday.
wow, nothing to loook forward to either.
apparently it's going to be cold. great, more layers of clothes. i feel so heavy with all this crap on me
netball trials on wednesday.
maybe i can look forward to that.
mufti on friday.
is that something to look forward to?
i suppose. maybe i can wear something that is actually warm, and isn't awkward for me to move my body around in. I can hardly move my arms because my blazer is so stiff and the shoulder pads are uncomfortable.
so that's my daily complaints
I am also very sick of people who nod and pretend they know what i'm saying.
clearly, you are not paying attention because your eyes are drifting off somewhere else and as soon as i finish what i'm saying, you go straight to what you want to say which is completely irrelevant to what i just said.
please, i respect you when you're rambling on about what you want to say, so at least pretend that you care.
i love it when people pretend to be what they aren't, because it creates a good image in my mind.
i hate it when people pretend to be what they aren't and then i find out because they are so crap at pretending.
real friends. Who are they? Do they exist?
People would love to see me fall, just give up and stuff my life up. I know. That's what friends are for right?
