I got my English mark back today. Well I didn't know what I expected... I guess it's still pretty good compared to my other marks, but nowhere as good as previous years. I stuffed up in the section where I knew I would stuff up which kinda makes me really angry cos if I tried that one little bit more, I could of done extremely well and be safe from moving down... do you know that I really really really really want to do studies of religion next year? Unfortunately you can only do that in the top class so I really hope that my mark can just secure me in the class with my friends T_T.
I always get really random pop ups in my head. Random thoughts/reminders and snippets from different memories that my brain has accumulated. Sometimes they're happy thoughts, sometimes they're reminders of what a bad person I am and then I get depressed. Actually I try pretty hard to be happy. I avoid things that will make me sad at all costs. because I know that one little thought will lead to more thoughts and then I'll spend the rest of the day dwelling on that idea.
By the way ... on the note of avoiding. Do you know who i've been avoiding lately? MY MATHS TEACHER. Yes if you see me walking around aimlessly in maths looking extremely suspicious, it's because i'm avoiding my maths teacher. That's really ironic cos I sit in the front row... right in front of her and she's coming on camp with us. ARGH HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE?!?!? The reason why i''m doing this is cos I did really really really really really really really really really really really really really REALLY really badly in my exam. I know what you're doing, you're rolling your eyes and yawning at my mini rant about my "failure". I'm sorry but I am going to continue. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE MATHS I'M GOING TO FAIL MY HSC, MY MUM IS GOING TO KILL ME WHEN SHE SEES MY REPORT ARGHHHHH. GRR SHE IS THE REASON WHY I'M TIRED NOW! You see, this morning I went to school early to get coffee as usual, but as I was walking up the road.. i saw her. YES I SAW HER! ahhh so I turned around and speed walked around the corner. I really hope she didn't see me cos I looked incredibly sus... no joke.. just imagine me walking and then I have this weird expression on my face, turn around quickly and power walk away...
Anyway I'm really looking forward to tomorrow! It's the public speaking round 3 and I ALWAYS look forward to hearing them cos some of them are just SO funny and usually I'm sitting there laughing so hard over a small joke while the speaker already moved on from it 1min later. For some reason, I always feel like i'm the only excited one to listen to people talk!! IT'S SO EXCITING OMG. AHAHHA AND PEOPLE ARE SO FUNNY. I laugh for like 2mins and then people glare at me so then I have to try not to laugh which makes me laugh more which causes weird sounds to come out and I end up sounding like I'm farting and having a seizure at the same time O.O
Talking about laughing... you probably read Bella's post by now.. about our epic laughing session? For once, she wasn't exaggerating for once. I was literally in so much pain, I ended up asian squatting on the floor and I felt really faint. ALL BECAUSE OF BELLA. I kept telling her to stop but obviously she thought that was like some sort of HINT for her to laugh even more, which made me laugh MORE, which made her laugh MORE and then we both ended up dying like hell. I never knew laughing would hurt this much. I COULDN'T BREATHE, I WAS DYING AND SHE DIDN'T UNDERSTAND TAHT I WAS GONNA PASS OUT AND DIE. (slightly exaggerated but that's beside the point). It all started with Karina's "best friend" Cherry. She was innocently sitting next to her and I told her to whisper in Karina's ear "i'm yours" as a joke. She scrunched up her face and made this really retarded facial expression which made me laugh. I then told Bella what I told her to say, while laughing. This made her laugh and yeah.... but seriously you don't know how effed up Bella's laugh is. YOU NEED TO HEAR IT. ITS LIKE.... A CACKLE BUT A CONTINUOUS CACKLE AND WHILE SHE DOES THAT HER FACE IS LIKE... SO RETARDED AND I THINK SHE SAW MY RETARDED FACE AND THEN WE BOTH STARTED LAUGHING REALLY REALLY REALLY HARD.
