Slept at 4am last night but I don't regret it :D I had a good reason to stay up that late i promise >.< Ahhh finally get to go somewhere exciting tomorrow and see my friends who I felt like i haven't seen in AGESSS!! ............... . .. .  . . . .......

Ok fine I admit my blog is incredibly boring and i don't know what i should write anymore.. i just feel the need to blog xD WHY AM I UP AT 2:30? OH YEAH COS OF MY WISHFUL THINKING. HAR HAR what's the point of having dreams? People say you have to work hard to achieve something... but what if you've worked hard and nothing happens? Are you supposed to give up on trying or just keep trying and trying and hoping that one day a miracle would happen? Right now i'm in the process of trying and trying and hoping that one day a miracle would happen. I thought it was the right choice to make but i've decided to take the other path. FREAKING LEARN FROM MY EXPERIENCE AND GIVE UP.

Sometimes I wish I was just a normal person who just accepts the truth. I know what the truth is, but I can never accept it. I always just hope and hope something will change ... but it never does. You'd think that by now I would know I should give up hoping and look forward to something else. But i never seem to be able to let go... i only do that gradually. Like for example, I'm still not over singapore, i can't accept the fact that i'm right here... in my bed... at 2:30am blogging... i just want to go back and leave all my troubles behind like a trail on the runway tracks of the airplane. But for the past 2 years there is something that i still haven't been able to accept and let go of.... I long for the day when I can let go and tell myself it's not going to happen.

If my heart could speak to my brain, world war 3 would probably start. They contradict each other so much. Sounds so weird right? I can almost hear what my heart thinks, but i know that my brain won't listen to it. So right now who's winning - the heart or the brain? The heart is winning! For a while, the brain overtook but it got tired and felt sorry for the heart.... it was in too much pain. Now that the brain has let it's guard down, the heart is causing pain to the brain who knows that I, as a whole, will suffer from what the heart is doing. ANYWAAAAY this is really weird. Don't worry guys I don't talk to either organs in my body.