You know, this was supposed to be a happy post about how awesome my day was and how much fun i had with my friends and how much i appreciated everyone's birthday wishes whether they were genuine or not. But you know what, this blog isn't about what others think of me so i'm going to talk about how i feel right now instead of the usual recount of my day. I'm not going to lie, the whole day was so amazing, yet there was always one thing bothering me. One small thing that well, just ruined my almost perfect day. 

Birthday wishes. It's something that everyone values differently. To me, everything is about the thought, so if you're one of my close friends, i would expect something better than just "happy bday". Of course, as usual, my friends never disappoint me and always write the kindest messages for me to smile at. But this year, for weeks i had been looking forward to what one particular person would say to me. A skype/msn message? A text? Both? When it was that person's birthday, i stayed up until 12am and prepared a message on facebook and skype and sent them both at precisely 12am. My birthday. A facebook message.... a really unthoughtful, saracastic sounding message. not even a "have a great day!". Oh okay....um.... yeah thats cool. I wait and I wait, for the whole day I stared at my phone... nothing. So right now i'm probably being sensitive and demanding, but you know what. It's a wake up call. What used to be, stays in the past. Look at the situation now, this is what it has become. Nothing will be the same again.

After telling someone about it, they reminded me that i'm just overthinking it. Nah, no i'm not. This is about what i think  and honestly, i'm not even asking for too much. I just want a sincere birthday greeting that you actually mean. I wonder if you remembered it was my birthday without Facebook reminding you. Hah. To think i was stupid enough to even think that you would even talk to me on my birthday? Psh, i expect too much. I mean talking to me is such an effort right? Saying happy birthday to make a conversation is too much effort for you. Showing you care, just a little bit, is too much. Thanks, i know now. The more you expect, the harder it'll be to face the reality. Lesson learnt.

Despite that unimportant stuff... today was great~ The weather was way too hot though... man i couldn't even take off my sunnies cos it was too bright. I felt disgusting and needed a shower desperately, but I still had to trek all the way to bondi junction, take the bus to bondi beach and navigate my way down there by myself.... lugging a giant teddy bear with me :D HEHEHE THANKS FOR THE GIANT TEDDY BEAR GUYS! <3 It;s right next to me and i'm planning on hugging it to sleep.... yes i am insecure that i need a giant teddy bear to sleep with to make me feel loved and safe HAHA.

After going to the city and dying in the heat, i went to bondi beach, dragging my giant teddy with me in a giant morning glory bag. Peopel were giving me funny looks but they all smiled and said they loved my fluffy teddy bear :D I like friendly people. Since i was planning to camp inside a tent with my friend and not go into the water, i didnt bring swimmers. My friend didn't come so i was literally like , DEAD COS THERE WAS NO SHADE AND IT WAS OVER 30 DEGREES. I walked along the shallow part of the beach and bumped into my friend who gave me some sunscreen [thank god], he was really nice ^^ After that everyone went to a park and chilled there under teh nice shade of the trees. Later we went back to a friend's hosue for food and party! nomononomnomnomnonom 

So that's the very brief summary of today. Got a big day ahead of me tomorrow again. Neeed to pack all the essentials in my bag to keep me going for the day. It always happens. I always go places early and come home quite late at night so my bag has everything i need to survive in the wild :D IT;s pretty pro. One day i'll make a list of my survival bag :D

Thanks for all your birthday wishes, and i did have a good day like you all told me to :) goodnight!