Hey guys! How has your first 3 days of 2011 been? I've done nothing exciting... just stayed at home, took some walks at the park, cleaned my room (barely ahhaha), snacked too much, stalked fashion blogs, stopped checking my Facebook newsfeed every 5 minutes and i've recently started a drama which i've just stopped watching ==. Asian dramas are way too overrated and i've only watched like... an hour of it and it's so predictable. I don't understand why the two main characters always have to start off hating each other to begin with... and then end up falling in love. WHY DO THEY HAVE TO HATE EACH OTHER FIRST? It's almost become... a convention.
Anyway I didn't end up working yesterday, i went to the park and sat on a bench and wrote in my diary instead. I lose track of time when I go there. Without noticing, I spent 3 hours there, fighting the harsh winds that were too cold for my liking.
Anyway I want to rant about how much I dislike my brother at times, but I think that's too mean. Oh what the hell i'll do it anyway :).
Reasons why I dislike my brother:
he is incredibly spoilt. really really really really spoilt. He knows he's spoilt [thanks to my constant reminders], but he still continues to get whatever he wants without feeling guilty... is that even possible?!
he bursts into my room when my door is closed... DUDE DOOR CLOSED = I NEED PRIVACY!! There have been so many incidents of when i'm changing and he just bursts in... like I need some privacy ok ==
he assumes everything and tells my parents his assumptions which turn out to be wrong 98% of the time. Usually it's stuff related to boys and how I have "boyfriends" ==
HE HAS BECOME A GAMER!!!!! it was the one thing i tried to get him to avoid becoming.... but now i can't do anything about it. Ever since my parents got him a PS3 for his birthday, he's been completely addicted to it and plays it every second possible. Since my parents are so busy, they don't have time to manage his time on it so he takes advantage of his freedom and plays violent shooting/stabbing games all day. Worse of all, i have to witness it all. I have to witness his eyes slowly losing its "brightness" and watching it turn... almost dead. It's so scary. When you watch him play it scares me so much... the impact technology is having on our lives. -shiver-
he constantly reminds me of how unattractive i am. Yes, always.
he tries in every way possible, to get me in trouble. What did I ever do to him? NOTHING. I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO IN MY TIME [like play neopets] YET HE STILL TRIES TO MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE.
he tells me that I hate the family. Ok......what? I ask why he would think that and he says that i'm always unhappy at home but when I 'm with friends, i'm completely different and the only conclusion he can draw from that is, that i hate the family. I tell him that it's not the case and if he would SHUTUP ABOUT IT THEN MAYBE I'LL SMILE ONCE IN A WHILE =__= He then proceeds on telling me that the family hates me anyway so it doesn't matter. Yes. Great. Very loving brother.
Grammar > PLC. That is all. Blah blah blah if my test results are higher than him he tells my mum that it's only because PLC has lower standards than Grammar and starts going on about how crap my school is. QUIT MAKING UP EXCUSES.
Anyway I feel like a complete asshole but whatever. I just needed to spill it out. He's a good person i guess... most people his age are worse. Our society is pretty disgusting. As an older sister, I guess i just have to put up with his crap for another decade and when he matures he'll understand all the sacrifices i made!! mwahahahhaahah i'm so wise! -cough- Being older also means that I have to let everything slide and pretend what he does, never happened and always be caring, friendly and considerate. WELL I'M GETTING PRETTY GODDAMN TIRED.
Maybe if I wasn't so agro, I would appear friendlier to people. Oh oh oh I still need to make new year resolutions! Here's my list:
accept compliments instead of questioning them
study hard at school and learn from failures instead of moping around and not doing anything about it
be as nice as possible to everyone, even people i don't particularly like
stop thinking my life sucks when it really doesn't.
be understanding to parents even when you just want to scream at them and run away
BE HAPPIER. A LOT HAPPIER. BE VERY HAPPY. STOP BEING SAD. NO ONE CARES. JUST BE HAPPY AND DON'T LET ONE PERSON RUIN YOUR DAY/WEEK/MONTH/YEAR... it's actually possible T.T
Tomorrow is another boring day... but the pest control people are finally coming. Family outing on Thursday... hope people will actually turn up :( Glebe Markets on Saturday yaaay!! Don't think many people can make it though.... so depressing :( ahh well there's still a couple of weeks left til the start of school. ARHHHHH START OF SCHOOL!! HOW SCARY. Also, I spent the whole day reading msn conversations. They make me so happy sometimes. Then I get depressed cos i know things will never be the same again.... I've probably said this at least 10 times already. HAHAHHA makes no difference.
