I think this should be the longest time I haven't blogged, with no excuses. Everytime I click on blogger i see the "new post" button and I stare at it for 2minutes. Then I just click on Facebook again and as you can see, i've done that about... 6 times now? XD hahahaah. I don't know if i'm tired or just incredibly lazy. I don't feel like doing anything nowadays. Even going out seems too much of a bother unless it's a fun outing with lots of people. Well... haha on the topic of outings, I planned one today like 2 weeks in advance and I was really hopeful that people would come. Well after all that, only ONE person ended up going. Yes, love you whit! And the funny thing is, i told her yesterday. She didn't even know about it. Anyway I cannot not blame this on anyone because it's no one's fault :) Everyone just happened to be either sick, overseas or busy. I'm just unlucky because every other outing that has ever been organised has definitely had more than 2 people attend. Anyway that's just me and my bitchy teenage complaining. Don't worry i'm not angry, i'm just sad but also very happy because i had fun today :D Bought some much needed clothes for my brother and found some bargains for myself. Yay haha
Also, I just wanted to let you guys know that I really didn't make my blog to put on show. I don't even want anyone to see it. I seriously haven't put my link up anywhere and the only reason why people know it is because you're either my good friend or you found it on someone elses' blog T.T Yes that scares the hell outta me. Also, the original purpose of this blog was to document the stuff that happened in my life just in case I want to look back someday and laugh and cry at how young and stupid i was .... yeah actually not "just in case" more like, I DEFINITELY WILL FORGET EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN MY LIFE SO I HAVE TO RECORD IT SOMEWHERE. I also keep a diary for other personal stuff that I don't want to put on my blog but writing is such a bother.. typing is FUN AND FAST! This blog is not attended to seek sympathy or attention so please don't think that... or sigh when you think to yourself "argh now i have to comfort this depressed b*tch again".
I have to admit, for the past few months i've been conscious of what I post on my blog. I don't want to be conscious of that!! I just want to post whatever I like, complain as much as I want to and have as much freedom as I like, without facing the consequences of...people reading it and knowing my evil b*tch side. It's the only place where I can express myself without WORRYING!! See now I don't even know what i'm complaining about, who says I can't do all that? Anyway thanks for all your encouragement and stuff.... makes me nervous that you read everything I write.... so scary
Anyway from now on i'm just going to post whatever, bitch about anything i find wrong in my life and complain to my heart's content! Cos i can't do it anywhere else :P ALSO i'm going to post weird quotes/poems that might not make sense to you, but don't worry, my future self will understand completely. (please dont ask about them). Ok back to complaining.
One of the biggest things that piss me off are people on msn/skype who do this:
me: how was your day?
noob: ok, wbu?
me: pretty good actually! I ______________ etc etc
noob: haha that's cool
-10 minutes of silence for those who died in world war 'YOU DIE NOW'
me: ok.... is ___ going to elaborate?? i freaking wrote an essay about what i did and now ___ makes no effort to continue the conversation..... bitch ima hunt you down
me: hahahahahahhahah soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...... how tall are you?
noob: 110cm. why?
me: just wondering :D hahahah grrr forced to ask an awkward question just so you would reply...
-another 10 minutes of silence for those who died in world war 'IF YOU DONT TALK NOW I'LL GIVE YOU THE MINUTE OF SILENCE NEXT'
me: soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo okay seriously if you don't wanna talk to me just tell me
noob: i do want to talk to you!
me: WHY AREN'T YOU REPLYING
noob: i AM replying! LOL
me: okay then... grrr if you don't make another topic then i'm just going to not talk to you cos you clearly don't want to talk to me. And did you just end the conversation with "LOL"? LOL? SERIOUSLY?
-1hr of silence-
Okay so to me, the people who don't make an effort of reviving a dead conversation, just gives me the impression of them not wanting to talk to me. Obviously in a conversation, it's only natural that the topic you were talking about, will end at some point. Usually if you're a good friend, you would instantly think of something else to talk about or ask a question which will lead onto a topic to discuss. WELL some people just piss me off at how LITTLE EFFORT they put into attempting to do that. They just let the conversation die. I give them a chance... okay 10 minutes has passed.. maybe they're doing something else? 20minutes pass..... wow i'm still waiting? 30minutes pass.... OKAY YOU'RE A POOP. It makes me sad when that happens!! Why would you do that?! If you don't want to talk then at least make up a lame excuse instead of harshly ending it with "LOL". I'm fed up with always being the one to "revive" the dying conversation and i'm fed up with being NICE. I just won't talk to you and if you really want to talk to me like you said, then you will start the conversation for once. =__= MEN ARE ALL LIARS. LISTEN TO MY WORDS. L I A R S. The reason why i'm so pissed about this is because recently I waited 6 hours just to talk to someone I haven't talked to in a while, hoping to have a nice catch-up conversation you know? [no i just incredibly missed talking to them and seeing the way they talk] To my disappointment [and prediction], the conversation was exactly how I knew it would turn out to be. I would take like 0.000001 seconds to reply cos my attention was devoted entirely to it, but the other person would take 5 minutes or so. Ok im being stingy i know but it was 2:30am... how busy could you possibly be? Well actually this person is probably really busy talking to all the people lining up for him/her. ANYWAY I waited from 9:30pm - 2:30am to talk to him/her and all i get is this sh*t? Well I expected it but.... it's hard to face reality when it hits you so hard in the face. Guess you don't wanna talk to me aye? That's cool, I'll talk to you soon at our msn conversations from a year ago. Yes indirectly talking to you makes me feel a lot better. On that note, talking to you wasn't half bad. I could see you made some sort of effort.... better than last time -___-
Sorry about the massive rant.. and this whole post in general. As you can probably tell, i'm not in a good mood even after shopping so much today ahaha. You know what calms me down? sitting on a chair inside a completely pitch black dark room that even if your eyes get adjusted to the darkness, you still can't see a thing. It's even better if you don't know the room well.... you don't have the familiarness to it so your senses are going crazy, trying to figure everything out. WTF that doensn't even make sense. But yes I do that quite a lot and it helps ^^
Gosh 3 weeks left of holdiays? great. and i've already rejected so many outings last week... k im gonna go to every one that i get invited to... from tomorrow on :D so lazy -__-
