I am upset. I am incredibly upset. Everything seems to be going wrong. My mum is screaming at me for going over my phone bill by $90 even though i told her it would be my birthday and chrismas presents for the past 3 years that she hasn't given me. I logically tried to explain to her, that my brother got a PS3 and an iphone for christmas and his birthday and it is completely fair for me to have a $100 something dollar "present" spread over 3 years. She won't listen.
But obviously this is not what i am incredibly upset about. Unfortunately it is late and I am really tired, as many of you would have noticed today at the swimming carnival. I fell asleep on the chairs and I looked down the whole day cos of the long night the night before. Of course, most of that "tired-ness" was actually pure sadness. Will not go into any detail, but I would like to remind my future self that you have learnt a lot today. Not only friendship wise, but other stuff too. ARGH I HATE HOW I CANT MENTION ANYTHING ON THIS GODAMN BLOG THAT PEOPLE HAPPEN TO READ.
You know what I really need right now? I need comfort and reassurance. I want someone to tell me, hey everything's gonna be fine, this is nothing. I want someone who will listen to me rant and complain and make stupid comments to make me laugh and forget about all my troubles for a while. I want someone who cares about me T_T. You know, actually all I want right now is to go back to the past. As the years go on, things just seem to get worse and worse.... Now the past seems so bright even though at the time, it wasn't as good as it looks like now. Which got me thinking, in the future, when we look back, the present is going to be "the past". HAHA WOW MY FUTURE LOOOKS SOOO BAD NOW. Man, i really need a more positive attitude...
HAHA I feel better now. I was completely sad like 2hrs ago then i cried so much that some of my sadness just seem to flow out as well :) My therapy works!
