I know i'm probably a bit late on making a post like this but whenever I blog about something, it depends on my mood. It's been a while since i've done something relatively humour-based like a conversation that I occasionally overhear or just making fun of something that amuses me. I'm in the thinking mood tonight.. and I just want to talk about appreciation.
Recently i've been quite upset and I just didn't know what was going wrong with me. Don't worry if you haven't noticed, i only really show what i'm like at home. When i'm alone with my own thoughts. I couldn't control my emotions and everything just seemed messed up and out of place. Nothing was right. Things were going wrong. I hated my life. Ok ok STOP THERE The really unintelligent and ignorant statement of "I hate my life" has popped up an unforgivable amount of times on this blog and it makes me angry that I even have thoughts like this. How could I hate my life, or even possibly think that my life is.. BAD when there are people suffering SO MUCH (understatement, but i wouldn't be able to describe it any other way). Unfortunately as the uninformed and ignorant teenage girl that I am, I choose to ignore this fact and complain about my 'shit life' which is in fact THE CLOSEST THING TO PERFECT in someone who is fighting for survival's eyes. These are the times which make me feel like i'm a bad person. Very very very very bad person.
Yes, i do have the right to complain about all my 'troubles' (PFFT MY TROUBLES ARE LAUGHABLE), but i have no right to think that it's BAD compared to OTHER PEOPLE LEADING UNTHINKABLY TOUGH LIVES anywhere in the world. Japan. Do I need to say more? Japan was always able to stand on its own. It never needed such aid, or help, or awareness, or funding or donations, it was well on its own. Right now, Japan has been hit so hard that the very ground it once stood on has been crushed. Japan has fallen.
Anyway. Enough of that. I should be very happy. I got into exchange! Yes I hoped that this would be a brighter post about how happy I am and stuff but unfortunately this good news has to be included in a depressing post. When I look back, it's just gonna be.. sad. Oh well, I'm sure that there will be many posts of me showing my excitement leading up to the date of my exchange sister coming which is June/July I think? I can't wait to show her around the city and go sightseeing. I love that sort of stuff, as you guys know.
Tonight I skipped Art Classes and we went out for celebratory dinner instead. Jap food = yum. I took pictures, but i'll post them up in another post.THE CITY WAS SO OVERCROWDED. PEOPLE EVERYWHERE. The traffic was horrendous. Aiya... I'm helping my mum pack for going to China tomorrow. Yes, one parent comes back, the other goes. ==' Well at least not both of them are gone. Anyway I was happy when I got to eat good food, but i'll have to make up the stupid class tomorrow after chinese school. Argh. ew. The rainy weather pisses me off. Why does it have to rain when i'm outside? It's not even cold.. it's like humid and rainy. Reminds me of Singapore but with worse memories.
