Right now I just feel so stupid. I've wasted..so much of my time and ..well all of me for something that I thought existed, but really never did. It was all just a chess game and I was just one of your pawns that you used when you felt like I was of some worth. In my life, I've never really made many mistakes because I'm a sort-of careful person that's aware of my surroundings and the situation i'm in and I make wise decisions to protect myself from being hurt. Yes that skill I developed after primary school cso I realised that I needed to be strong .I wouldn't allow anyone to hurt me. You were a careless mistake.
I want to talk to you right now and just scream so much that my caps lock button will fall off. I want to write an essay of how much I hate you. I don't even care what you did today, seriously whatever. It's what you've been doing for ages, which I was too blind to see, that i'm so angry about. I want to give you a chance to explain, but really, do I want to hear it? I am just going to assume everything you say are just lies. liesliesleis yayayaya. I know i'll regret what i'm doing now but whatever. The whole process will just repeat itself and in the end I will still be in this hopeless, wrecked state, back to the beginning.
