Wow it's been FOREVER since I posted and trust me, it's not due to exams :) So i kinda kept a daily summary thing going on in my drafts but you know what, i'm not even going to post them anymore because they are not important. What's important are the things that i want my future self to see, know and realise, and a daily update is not necessary!
I have to say, exams have been quite good to me this year, even though I still have Chinese left but I'VE ALREADY STARTED CELEBRATING THE HOLIDAYSSSSS!!! My assessment results have been quite pleasing on the whole (except maths) and my stress levels during the exam period has been manageable. The only subjects where I completely flipped in were Maths and Studies of Religion and I am just hoping for a pass :) My ultimate goal: over 70 for all subjects. Lowering my standards = less disappointment = more happiness = living longer :) heh I have taken what could be called a "photo diary" for the interesting days i've had throughout my unblogging days, and i'll upload them another time.
Today was good... really good. I cannot explain how happy I was to leave knowing it ended on a good note, a firm handshake and a genuine smile. It was a sign of... almost a mutual "let's forgive and forget" but without the words. After today I realised that we did have the capability of being friends and although i tried to convince myself that we were strangers, I knew that the past could not be wiped away just like that. Traces come into the future as good memories, memories that can be cherished as friends. I have to admit, I went into today thinking it would not start well, nor end well and it'll just be awkward and i'd want to leave immediately. Yet, the smile that is still on my face is a reminder that I should really be more optimistic about things... cos I felt surprisingly comfortable the whole day even though I spent most of it just daydreaming and enjoying the moment.
I have a blood test tomorrow because my mum insists on finding out the reasons for my fainting and stomach aches/collapsing/paralysed body incident that happened twice. I AM SO SCARED OF NEEDLES. I CAN'T HAVE A BLOOD TEST T_T Apparently the needles stay inside your vein for longer cos it's trying to get more blood and it hurts... omgomgomg :( I remember when I had to get 2 vaccinations for East Timor, my doctor was laughing at me heaps cos he's never seen someone my age look so scared. WTF SCREW YOU!! My friend was telling me about her doctor not being able to find the vein so he kept poking it in and out and shoving it around her arm...fml if that happens to me i don't know what i'll do :/ AIYA IM SUCH A WUSSSS...
Hehhe i am so excited for China/HK! Did i mention that i'm going this Sunday? It's only with my mum this time (usually i go with my whole family) so hopefully it won't be awkward since we dont have the best relationship. I'm planning to get my formal dress (lol... if i dont then i only have like a week to get it in AUS), warm Winter clothes for China Exchange, shoes and other stuffs i end up getting hehehe. My mum's ditching me in HK for a day so i'm planning a day with LIZ as well as another friend who's gonna take me on a massive eating adventure in HK!! YAAAY i always wanted an eating adventure in another country with a friend :) Thought that'll be in uni or something but wow it's happening now woooh!
As you can see, i'm in a very happy mood, especially after watching ridiculously stupid youtube vidoes that are just so hilarious which made me laugh for like 10mins straight. My mum actually thinks i'm retarded... one minute i'm craving food, the next i'm paralysed and screaming for help, then i get depressed for no reason and now i'm laughing hysterically. I am going to go now and not think about my blood test tomorrow.
